feelgreymustgo

I'm leaving for my trip tomorrow, and I've gotten myself sick. Fever sick. I slept for pert near 3 hours when I came home today, so I decided to go out. It was my lady Ashley's birthday. I figure I'd want someone to be at my birthday celebration, so I pushed pass my aches and fever and trudged on. 
I saw him again, and I told him to stop being so damn nice to me. "Do you want a t-shirt?" "Yes, I would love a t-shirt. The brown one with red writing. That's the nicest," I told him. A few moments later he brought me one, and kissed me on the head. It's always so hard to tell someone you don't love them, especially when they don't do anything awful to you. 
I left that place and went somewhere new. The MO was to dance, but there was no dancing at this place tonight. It was a ghost town. We sat around and played Never Have I Ever until the bar politely turned on its lights, signaling that it was time to go. "This is so immature," someone mentioned. I reckon it was. Grown-up time had come, and so had last call. I hadn't spent enough on my tab, so the boy behind the bar let me take a beer home in my purse.
On the walk home, it was so quiet. So quiet my fever broke. I was clutching my keys in such a way as to ward off any would-be attackers, all the while sweat is pouring down my face. "Remember, stay away from shadowy areas near bushes. That's where those things happen," I reminded myself. I looked all passerby in the eyes, daring them to try something with the knowledge that I could easily identify their faces and cars. 
"White mustang, later model than 1997," I practiced. "Couldn't get the plate, but I can tell you he had a pony tail and a goatee.
"Don't flatter yourself, kid. You' ve got nothing they want. Here, think about that dream you always have until we get home," my mind said to me. 

I always dream that my home is bigger than it is-that I find rooms I never knew about. Once, I found an entire new floor in my parents' house in this dream. It was open, and spacious, and the only way to get to it was through my step-sister's closet. It was designed in small sections of white couches and black-lacquered furniture. Art-deco, maybe-like it was only used for parties, and only back when my dad used to drink. I figured that was its use because it was dusty. In the dream, that's what I meant. 

Another time, I dreamt my little studio apartment had a fancy patio. The furniture was a little bit worn, but I cleaned it, and began planning a party. I was going to call it my Look I have a Patio party. Then I woke up, and there was no patio. All that work for nothing.

I hope one day to live somewhere so big and so old that I find new rooms I didn't know about. 
I have no good way to end this, so I'm just going to.

The old ways are coming back- in full force. I went to his office. It was all the influence of my skirt, I guess. I never wear them that short, but last night I let it guide me. In his office, bent over his desk, my little blue skirt pulled up over my hips. Over and Over until that satisfying warmth, and the sneak down through the bar. Like it didn't happen. I didn't even say goodbye. Just left. I felt like I walked over him, through him, on him. It doesn't matter. I'll keep doing it. I'll never really be satisfied until I hurt them all.

He leaves me humming, and a cigarette. I'm left with a warm, tingling sensation, and a wet spot.

Uh...is this real?

http://www.genpets.com/index.php

If so, I want one.

"Have you ever danced?" I asked him.
"Once, but everyone thought I was trying to tell them where the best nectar was," he replied.


This is why I love him.

Still in love, and my neighborhood is a bar.

If Your Child is a Gothic, Reform Through the Lord! Listed below are some warning signs to indicate if your child may have gone astray from the Lord. Gothic (or goth) is a very obscure and often dangerous culture that young teenagers are prone to participating in. The gothic culture leads young, susceptible minds into an imagined world of evil, darkness, and violence. Please seek immediate attention through counselling, prayer, and parental guidance to rid your child of Satan's temptations if five or more of the following are applicable to your child:
Frequently wears black clothing.

Wears band and/or rock t-shirts.

Wears excessive black eye makeup, lipstick or nailpolish.

Wears any odd, silver jewelry or symbols. Some of these include: reversed crosses, pentagrams, pentacles, ankhs or various other Satanic worshipping symbols.

Shows an interest in piercings or tattoos.

Listens to gothic or any other anti-social genres of music. (Marilyn Manson claims to be the anti-Christ, and publicly speaks against the Lord. Please discard any such albums IMMEDIATELY.)

Associates with other people that dress, act or speak eccentrically.

Shows a declining interest in wholesome activities, such as: the Bible, prayer, church or sports.

Shows an increasing interest in death, vampires, magic, the occult, witchcraft or anything else that involves Satan.

Takes drugs.

Drinks alcohol.

Is suicidal and/or depressed.

Cuts, burns or partakes in any other method of self-mutilation. (This is a Satanic ritual that uses pain to detract from the light of God and His love. Please seek immediate attention for this at your local mental health center.)

Complains of boredom.

Sleeps too excessively or too little.

Is excessively awake during the night.

Dislikes sunlight or any other form of light. (This pertains to vampires promoting the idea that His light is of no use.)

Demands an unusual amount of privacy.

Spends large amounts of time alone.

Requests time alone and quietness. (This is so that your child may speak to evil sprits through meditation.)
Insists on spending time with friends while unaccompanied by an adult.

Disregards authority figures; teachers, priests, nuns and elders are but a few examples of this.

Misbehaves at school.

Misbehaves at home.

Eats goth-related foods. Count Dracula cereal is an example of this. 


Drinks blood or expresses an interest in drinking blood. (Vampires believe this is how to attain Satan. This act is very dangerous and should be stopped immediately.)

Watches cable television or any other corrupted media sources. (Ask your local church for proper programs that your child may watch.)

Plays videos games that contains violence or role-playing nature.

Uses the internet excessively and frequently makes time for the computer.

Makes Satanic symbols and/or violently shakes head to music.

Dances to music in a provocative or sexual manner.

Expresses an interest in sex.

Is homosexual and/or bisexual.

Pursues dangerous cult religions. Such include: Satanism, Scientology, Philosophy, Paganism, Wicca, Hinduism and Buddhism.-Wears pins, stickers or anything else that contains these various phrases: "I'm so gothic, I'm dead", "woe is me", "I'm a goth".

Claims to be a goth.

If five or more of these apply to your child, please intervene immediately. The gothic culture is dangerous and Satan thrives within it. If any of these problems persist, enlist your child into your local mental health center.
~St. Mary's Catholic Church

I just like chocolatey marshmallow cereal, but now I know Count Chocula is one of Satan's minions. Now that I am aware, I will not let that tasty evil damn my soul...

"so what if i like Dokken?"

yeah, i love him, even so...

Somebody wuvs me.

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